It has been a hectic month for me. But beyond my small life, it's been tumultuous for everyone I know and everyone I read about in the news. The mood of the country is different, and I have to say I feel that current in my own notions about myself, and about possibility in general.
There were many deaths this month. My good friend's brother died in a car accident at 26, and I went to support her at the funeral. It was the first time I had ever seen a human body not alive, and the first time it hit home about the absence of soul after the blood no longer pumps. I visited my grandmother in Seattle, where she is also at the end of her life, and while seeing her so close to the end was shocking it is totally different to mourn someone who's life was only as far along as mine.
In addition, on the 24th my web traffic spiked. It seemed my name was being searched way more than average... I was compelled to investigate. But instead of finding some glowing article about my work, I discovered an 18 year old in Florida whose name we share died, and a lot of people were searching after her.
Here we are at the beginning of the year. I think so many people are waiting with baited breath for one reason or another - some for resolution on bigger conundrums, others only wish for small shifts and corrections that may come to be during the years ahead. These events and clues all lead me to believe that there will be a lot of beginnings, births and brash progress just ahead.
That's all for now!